I wish I could escape life.

Life is hectic sometimes. For me that sometimes is now so I would like to take the easy way out and escape from life. Oh if it only were that simple. I'm at the end of my first year of university so I'm in this horrible situation of having to pick who to live with out of 3 people who pretty much think/expect they are going to live with me and I basically feel like I'm being pulled in every direction at the crossroads. And the feeling of knowing that whatever I do, is going to hurt someone is the worst feeling ever. I'm hating my life right now. On top of that I sent my mother today the messages I was supposed to send my cousin complaining about my life which didn't make my stress any better (except I realized what a loving mom I had in a completely new way which was very nice). On top of all this I have a politics and social work essay to write as well as eventually start studying for my up-coming exams (lowest priority right now). Oh someone just take me away from this world for a bit PLEASE! I know it will sort it's self out eventually but until then couldn't I just disappear somewhere far far away? Sigh...

I wish I'll never have to be separated from a loved one :(

Okay, I'm already separated from my family since I moved to Scotland now but that doesn't bother me much. I guess I'm used to not seeing them sometimes (okay maybe I miss them just a little bit...). But I wish I never never never will have to be separated from my boyfriend. That would be horrible. Just imagine being separated from someone you care about that much for like a year. That would take a lot of commitment, patience and love. 

Sad part is I'm probably gonna have to be separated from mine for at least a year at some point. He will have to do army and unless I go to Finland to wait for him to come visit every now and then, we will have to go long distance for a bit. It will be absolutely horrible. It's gonna be all about skype and mail. I think I would actually sit down and write a letter at that point. I guess its all part of being in a long distance relationship. I'm so not looking forward to it (if it ends up happening). =/