I wish I get a job and don't have to take a loan!

If anyone at any point thought I am in anyway rich or well off or spoiled little brat - you were mistaken. I am a poor student. I want a job that would in some way relate to my future career but it is really hard to find a job in my country (I am going to see my family for the summer). I could take a cleaners job I've done during my holidays (since I was 16) at a hotel but I've injured my back because of it so I don't think it would be too smart of me. So yeah someone please tell me where I'm meant to pull money out of. My friends and family tell me I should just use my student loan but I just don't feel comfortable doing that. I know its completely normal to take the loan and it is meant to support students during their studies, hence the name, but I know I would just constantly think about how much I'm on minus. I'm just not comfortable with the idea. So fingers crossed someone will want to employ me or I'll just have to go back to the hotel for a month at least. I don't want the picture below to me soon. Meh.

Just a little word of thinking with brains here at the bottom. I am really thankful that I am lucky enough to live in a country where I get free tuition fees, I know that a lot of people do not have that luxury. Also tonnes of people are way worse off than me so I should not stress about this. I will end up taking the loan if I don't figure out something this summer but I am stressed about it and this is my little I wish blog so I get to come rage about my life here ;D

P.s Sorry I haven't been posting much lately <3

I wish I have these little details in my wedding someday

I haven't thought about my future wedding that much. Its been more about what I would like my dress to look like or how i would like to have my hair. This post will not be about what I will look like but rather the small details of the wedding. Also obviously there will me be and my husband to be planning this so everything is open to discussion and we all need to make sacrifices sometimes don't we? So yea, these are just ideas. =D

Church Wedding
I do not want a church wedding because the place looks nice or because of traditional reasons. I want a church wedding simply because I want to say my vows and be made one with my future husband in the eyes of God. I know that God sees everything and is everywhere but having a church wedding is a more symbolic way of doing it for me and it is important to me.

This Sign! 
I saw this picture and love it! Why do we have to sit on different sides? Two families are becoming one so why can't we sit wherever we want? Love the idea.

Wedding March
I love Canon in D. Absolutely love it. This video was the best version I found - might have to find these men to preform at my wedding someday!

Songs at Church
Since there's always songs that will be sung at church, I would want to pick them rather than having random ones. A definite one is In Christ Alone, it has such powerful lyrics. I think I would pick one song in English and one song in my language since not all my relatives speak English. 

No Alcohol - except the champagne for speeches and wine for food
I know everyone's idea now a days seems to be 'lets get drunk' at weddings. I do not want that. I don't want people drinking at my wedding and getting drunk. There will obviously be champagne for the speech and all that but that's it. Maybe wine for the food - depending on the food of course.

Brides Speech
Why not? My sisters wedding had a brides speech as well as a grooms speech and I loved the idea. I think it would be really cute! In addition I think I would ask in advance some people if they want to keep a speech. It might get dangerous and awkward to have an open mic! Eek.

Dancing
I'm not sure about this one but I'm definitely more for it that against it! So I'll decide depending on the space at the venue (and husbands opinion)! But it's romantic and cute and gives the couple time to talk and cuddle after all the tension! <3