I wish that one day I'll be an au pair!!

Totally out of my comfort zone but I wanna do it! Right now I have an application in aupair-world.net and am getting tonnes of messages. I found a perfect family but think they already have an au pair so that kinda sucked but otherwise I'm still waiting for the perfect family to come by! I wanna go to Spain preferably for just like 2 months. I could be earning some money while enjoying myself and taking care of kids, which will definitely benefit me with my future career. I'm so looking forward to this!

Also, when you leave to go somewhere far from home into a new environment and live with as little technology as possible and just be with yourself and the kids; you learn a lot about yourself! So I think it would be really cool to just be and become more aware of me. I'm so exited and am looking forward to this. Who knows might not find a perfect family or might get my ticket to Spain already in 3 weeks! Fingers crossed!

I wish I'll have a Bengal cat someday!

I know for sure that I will own a cat someday when I get a permanent home, I love cats! I've never really cared that much for different breeds but Bengal cats??? They are to die for! They are so pretty and their personality is so playful and energetic. The only thing is they are super expensive! At least in Finland they are. I went on gumtree and there was an ad for 3 Bengal cats free to a new home but of course I cant make a commitment like that right now because I'm a student. Otherwise I would have gone for it. Oh well, some day I will buy a little Bengal kitten and I will love her! Can't wait! <3

 

I Wish I Could Wear Long Skirts Outdoors Without Looking 'Weird' to Others

Why does every piece of clothing have to be so revealing now a days. I wear tonnes of mini dresses and all the rest of that but why does EVERYTHING have to be so revealing. Even shorts now a days go into your ass showing your butt cheeks to the world. I'll be 'old fashioned' about it and say whats with the world that I'll actually feel awkward walking outside in appropriate clothes! I love skirts. I was raised in a third world country and wore skirts that went past my knees majority of the time. Now that I've moved up and about Europe and live here, I actually will feel awkward wearing a skirt out of the house unless it's a mini skirt. I bought a skirt that went past my knees a while back and my flat mates actually told me it looks like a goody goody church girl skirt. I'd like to see their faces if I wore skirts till the ground. Oh what has this world come to!

I really wish I owned most of my skirts that I used to a few years back, and I wish I had the guts to wear them outside. I think skirts are classy and pretty. Plus they are super comfy! You can get such good and different looks wearing skirts so definitely not a boring look in my opinion. When I travel to go on holidays, I wear skirts quite a bit when i go outside because it's not weird in less developed countries, plus its respectful to some religions so thats a plus as well. 



Either way, I really like the style. It took me ages to find some decent photos but I love all of these looks! Tell me if you think any of outfits are bad. I think they look really classy and neat. Wearing heels with skirts that go under you knees look really good in my opinion and flats that don't show from under the skirt with longer ones. I don't know what you guys think but I love the style and wish I lived somewhere where everyone dressed like this. But yeah, no worries! I do own a few skirts still and will hold on to them, I'm not giving up! :)

I wish I had a water mattress

I don't know why but I've always wanted one. Must be annoying to set it up and 'maintain' it and all that but I really want one someday. I think I'd just lye in my bed and move a bit causing little waves... I'd never want to get out of bed! Since I find it hard already now to get out of bed I think it would be even harder once that comes into my life. Reality check, I'm probably never going to get one and if I did who knows, I could just end up with a sore back. So yea, maybe I'll find a hotel one day with a water bed and try it. Maybe it will count just being able to sleep one night on a water bed. 

Oh and I just found out that in most water beds you can control the temperature of the water meaning that resolves the problem of being too hot or too cold at night! You could even go over the top with it and get an octagon shaped bed while you're at it... =D

I wish I will one day have artistic and 'different' posters/canvas around my flat

I love big posters what you wouldn't see in just anyones flat. Right now I have a poster of a picture taken in Venice with a couple and a red umbrella on my wall. I'd like to have another poster thats kind of the same style somewhere else in my flat too. Perhaps a little boat going through the  canals they have in Venice. I saw a poster like that in a shop once (picture on the right) and I really wish I would have bought it. I definitely should hunt that poster down again and get it! I also quite like the black and white couple kissing posters you sometimes see around. And yes, I really like dance related posters too! I think a flat would look really nice with posters like these.

I also like just random posters what I find interesting like the one below with colorful rain and the girl with the umbrella, such a smart idea for a painting eh? I definitely want something like that on my wall! It's such a pity posters are so expensive. I've been on ebay searching but nothing has been good enough. It's just luck what you find. Even the couple in Venice poster was ordered from online.

I wish I wasn't always cold

I am always cold and I love having my room super warm. Everyone who comes to visit me always complains about this. I don't really care about that, but I hate that when I go out I always have to take a jacket or I will freeze to death (except if its summer of course). Then when I get to where ever I'm going, I get annoyed at having to carry a jacket around all the time. Agh. And of course most of the girls who I go out with don't wear a jacket so it's even more annoying to carry the jacket around seeing others don't. First world problems.... =D 

I wish I could escape life.

Life is hectic sometimes. For me that sometimes is now so I would like to take the easy way out and escape from life. Oh if it only were that simple. I'm at the end of my first year of university so I'm in this horrible situation of having to pick who to live with out of 3 people who pretty much think/expect they are going to live with me and I basically feel like I'm being pulled in every direction at the crossroads. And the feeling of knowing that whatever I do, is going to hurt someone is the worst feeling ever. I'm hating my life right now. On top of that I sent my mother today the messages I was supposed to send my cousin complaining about my life which didn't make my stress any better (except I realized what a loving mom I had in a completely new way which was very nice). On top of all this I have a politics and social work essay to write as well as eventually start studying for my up-coming exams (lowest priority right now). Oh someone just take me away from this world for a bit PLEASE! I know it will sort it's self out eventually but until then couldn't I just disappear somewhere far far away? Sigh...

I wish I become good at photography

I love taking photographs. Even more I love photography. On top of all this I love playing around on photoshop. I would never take photos and get paid for it, but I'd do it for fun! I've always wanted a good camera. I have had 2 cameras but both have taken somehow crappy photos. Especially the one I have now I really need to play around with to get a decent photo. Lucky me though, I went on ebay and found a good Nikon camera for really cheap when comparing to its real price, so here I am waiting for my camera to arrive! When it arrives I will grab a flatmate to be my model and go take some photos! Well after I learn how to work it of course! Oh I'm so so excited!

I wish I had a side swept fringe/bangs

I have always liked side swept bangs/fringes. They are so pretty and I just wish I knew if one would suit me or not. Here comes the reason why I have never really got one: my family/relatives have something against fringes and they are always going on about how ugly they are on people. I agree they don't suit everyone but I would like to try. I wouldn't get a fringe that comes till my eyebrows definitely though, I would like a side swept fringe rather. I once told the hairdresser to cut me one which I can hide into my hair easily and I loved the look of it when I put it out even though it was so annoying on my eyes all the time! 

If I were to do it now, I'd feel horrible cutting so much of my hair off because i've been growing it for ages. I wish I would have ignored my family and relatives and shut my ears to their comments and gone for it a few years ago. It would have grown out in no time. Agh. I think I will tell the hairdresser next time to cut me a hidden fringe again so I can somehow pull it out if I want. Lots of people have told me that a fringe would really suit me without me even asking for an opinion so I'll just believe that. It's just so hard to ignore closest peoples opinions who are there all the time.

I got a solution though! I know I am so stupid but whatever! I went on ebay and got a fake clip-on fringe (real hair and cheap (Y)). Yes, I did. I'm currently waiting for it to arrive and can't wait to play around with it. I watched reviews on it and a lot of people seem to like them. Basically I won't need to commit to cutting my hair before I'm sure, and its real human hair so I'm guessing it would blend in easier. So yes, maybe I'll feel more confident getting a real fringe after I'm sure if it fits me or not.