I wish shopping malls had mini cars or something!

I went to Poland for about 2½ days to go shopping. Lets just say my legs are as good as amputated. Every step I took after the first day was PAIN, lets not even discuss the last days. Why can't they have mini golf carts or something to move around with? The shopping malls there were huge! On our last day we went to the biggest shopping center around and it took us the entire day to go through all the shops on all the floors. To top that we got lost when the shopping center closed at 21.00 and had to walk extra much to find our way out. I'm sure i'm not the only one who thought about this and I've thought about it tons of times since I think i'm a bit of a shopaholic but - Mini cars to huge shopping malls!!!

'Because when I shop, the world gets better'

Even though my feet are dead, lets just say it was so worth it! I did not know it was possible to shop that much! We woke up early and shopped from sunrise to sunset when the shops closed basically. And lets clear this, we are not rich, it is just so damn cheap there! I bought 2pairs of heels, 2summer shoes, like 5 sets of earrings <3, tons of clothes, perfume, nail polish, baby clothes (I'm an aunt now!) and other stuff. ='D To explain how cheap stuff was, I bought heels for about 6€ and the other one pair was about 8€. Usually heels cost like... 40-50€ on the cheap end. So yea... I'm not gonna go shopping for the next few months and that's a promise I HAVE to make to myself, I'm pretty much broke and I have lots of stuff now =) Lets end this with: everyone, go to Poland. Its cheap and a in general a really nice place and yea, I really wish they had those mini cars in those huge malls. 

I wish I was a make-up artist!

Not as an career, no. But it would be awesome to be really good at putting make up on my self just as other people and making all these really cool designs. And just for the hell of it when i'm going out, I could make some bigger make up which is not too fancy but just different without completely messing it up! I have watched lots of make up tutorials and stuff just to watch people doing the make up and I enjoy it. I get days when I just fool around with my make up and then wash it off but to be honest I'm not that good at it. ='D It's fun tho! And that's all that matters, right? 

The make up I find most important is the eyes. The eyebrows are a must for everyday but the actual eye make up... oh so much can be done. Look at the photo above and below. I chose them because it has so much detail, you can see like 4 colors mixed and then the design with the eyeliner especially on the top one. I think it looks just amazing! I would love to learn to do something like this!! Maybe I'll try one day when I get bored, but I think it would be awesome to go to some course where i'd get ideas and tips on different styles of make up. Above all it would be super fun! Maybe I will one day, you never know. =) 

I wish people would love this song as much as I do =)

I heard this song in my friends car today and then came home and listened to it so many times that I'm already getting a little bit tired of it. Except I think I can never get sick of this. If I could sing and play the piano better I would learn to play this and then sing it over and over. Of course alone tho. Heh... =) I liked it from the very first time I heard it and I hope others would too!

Otherwise on WHATS GOING ON IN MY LIFE right now, I'm having my final exams in about a week and a half and I haven't studied at all yet! I've been having study break for about 2½ weeks now and I have just been lazy and I need to get enough points to get into the university I applied for. I seriously hate studying and have 0 motivation. I forced my self to read biology the other day. I sat there for about 3-4 hours and read about 3/4 of a page and day dreamed the rest of the time. I'm in big trouble and if motivation doesn't soon come to me, looks like I'm gonna be sitting a year waiting for a retake on the exams. What am I gonna do? =(

I wish they still had drive-in movies!

Why don't they have drive-in movies anymore??? In old movies you see couples driving to a place outside where there is a movie been played on some random wall and then you sit on top of the car hood and watch it. I think it would be so cool if they still had those and i'd definitely go! I think i'd rather go with my boyfriend to one of those than some random restaurant for dinner. But then again, it would have to be warm and in Finland its pretty much light outside 24-7 during the summers. 

Despite that I think it would be an awesome idea to have those drive-in movies. If they still have those in some part of the world, I wanna know. And if I happen to go to a country where they have those, I'm going and I don't care how much it costs!! And I hope I'll have my boyfriend and a car on top of which I can sit with me then too!

   

I wish I will be a Social Worker one day and love it!

I've never really wanted a specific career but I decided 3 years ago as I moved to Finland that I want to be a social worker. Perhaps it's the amount of people I know here in Finland who have had random problems what should have been done something about when they were younger that influenced my choice... I don't really know. Every year I just want it more, lets put it that way =) SO YES... I applied to a few places in Scotland to study sociology and social work but I really wanted to just get into one of the universities to study social work. And as I waited for replies, of course it was the last university that replied after the long wait and then wanted a interview and then some random essays and criminal records etc... and after all that, I GOT IN!!! So looks like I'm going to be moving to Scotland in September to study to become a social worker then!

One problem, what if I don't like it or feel like I cant mentally deal with it? I think it will be just fine and yes many people have told me that its a challenging job mentally and the work comes home with you everyday and yea... but its the only thing I have ever really wanted so yea. And whatever career I end up having I want it to have something to do with helping people directly. I wanna know I spent my life helping out others when I grow old so sounds like this could be the right place for me. After a year of studying I have my first work experience so... I guess latest by then I will know, for now I will just hope I'm making the right choice. No, I know I'm making the right choice. And yes, I will end up liking the job, I have decided. Yes, yes I will. 

I wish I never grow wisdom teeth!!!

Seriously God forbid I ever grow wisdom teeth! I have a very bad dentist phobia... I go crazy days before, I hate hate hate it. When I was a kid I had to sit for hours in the dentist chair since we got to go only once a year to dentist when we came to Finland for holidays (Gambia didn't really have good dentists). I always had lots of cavities since I ate loads of candy which didn't make it any better for me. I dreaded the idea of being in the dentist so much that I actually bit the dentist by 'accident'...? I'm ashamed to admit that I wasn't even that young anymore and my mother had to pull me kicking and screaming in to the dentist room. =D

Now that I've moved to Finland, I hadn't gone to the dentist in years since there was no need to go and no way I'm going there just for the hell of it. My 18th birthday was coming up so I had to go to the dentist because after that Its not free anymore; turned out I had a few cavities and I needed root canal treatment. It was a NIGHTMARE. The dentist told me I'm the most difficult patient she ever had to deal with and thought we should have many short times rather than a few long ones. I had about 9 times within 2 months. The last cavity was on the top at the back and she couldn't even begin to do anything without me starting to move around so ya,... she told me to come check it out after this summer so I hope its not worse off by then, yay!

I don't really know why I'm so frightened of the dentist tho, probably cuz I had to go so much as a kid. Every time I come from the dentist I just feel brutally molested or something. I'm always in the need of a hug for ages. I just hate everything about the dentist, the noise, the smell, the machinery, the dentist her self!... plus I gag every time she sticks something in to my mouth... EVERYTHING IS WRONG WITH IT!! Now you probably understand my worst night mare: Wisdom Teeth. Just No. Today I felt as if two of them are starting to grow on the top of my mouth. There are two little bumps that hurt when I touch them so great. All I can hope is that it wont bother me if they grow so I can avoid the dentist suggesting that she should remove them =(

I wish I could travel to all the continents before I die... except Antarctica :)

I love travelling more than anything. My family moved to The Gambia from Finland when I was 5years old meaning that we traveled every summer back and forth with a few detours on the way between the countries. I got so used to traveling that it's very hard for me to stay in one country without traveling for a year. Even after we moved back to Finland a few years ago, it hasn't stopped me traveling every year a few times somewhere. 

As for countries I have so far been to, here goes. I've traveled all around Europe; Finland, Sweden, Spain, England, Holland, Belgium, Poland, Ireland, Greece and Estonia at least, and in Africa I've been to The Gambia, Senegal and the Cape Verde Islands. In Asia, I've been to Turkey recently, and as a child I've been to Israel which I don't really remember. I haven't been to America or Australia at all. And yeah, I'd never go to Antarctica even though penguins would be pretty cool to see. 

I love beaches, shopping, seeing new places, fountains, lights and big cities. I think it would be really cool to see a few wonders of the world like Petra in Jordan for instance too =). In the future random places I'd wanna go to are; Australia, Jordan, Singapore, Thailand, South Africa, Israel again (maybe), Germany, Dubai, Italy... to name a few... too many countries to think about!!! As for America, I've said I don't wanna go there but honestly... I wouldn't mind seeing New York and Los Angeles and maybe Brazil and perhaps even Mexico. I'm probably moving to Scotland in half a year to study as well so ... Yay =) 

I wish I could save a life one day...

There is a million ways you can practically 'save a life'. Little things can have big effects. Think about it, by donating like 2€ to red cross or some other organisation could help in saving somebody's life, donate blood and you've just saved a life, been there as a listener for someone going through a tough time could prevent them from taking their own life and you wouldn't even know it! There's a million ways. I'm sure all of us have played some kinda role in making someones life better or perhaps even saving a life, but I would love to do something bigger. I'd love to know that hey, I just helped that person take a grip on life again or I just turned that persons life around to the better side. It would be an amazing feeling. 

One feeling I'm pretty sure no one would wanna have is knowing you could have done something, and knowing you can't anymore. For instance thinking that your friend takes their own life and you could have been there and stayed up with them all night but you weren't. I think that would be terrible. It would be awesome to know that you gave someone hope in life again or you where the person who changed their life for the better. I don't hope for a situation like that for anyone, but if there was a situation like that, I really wouldn't mind being there for them. 

Another thing is that people are so uptight and 'i don't care about other people' often, no offence if you fall into this category. But reality is that we can't make it alone in this world. There I said it. And I found an amazing photo (the one above), which says it better than a thousand words. Sometimes we just need someone to be there for us and turn that hourglass once again and we just cant do it alone. So start looking out for other people more I guess. =) 

I wish I'll be able to adopt a child someday!

I've never really wanted a child of my own or a child at all actually. BUT; as I've grown older, I've come to the conclusion that perhaps it would be nice to have a child someday. :) ONE THING THOUGH, Why bring a child into this world when there are millions of children in desperate need for a home? I've always thought this way and I always will. Adopting is so expensive in so many countries though which sucks. It should be cheaper so that people who want to adopt could have the chance to if they aren't exactly rich. But hopefully one day when i'm married and we decide to have a child with my future husband (if we do!!!), we will have enough money to afford adoption. 

I've talked about 'me one day in the future when i'm way older wanting to adopt', to some people and I was surprised about how many of then where like 'no way I'd ever adopt, I'd want my own child.' I thought everyone would wanna adopt if they just had the chance to. There are a lot of risks sometimes in adopting and its expensive but c'moon, its a human being just like me and you, plus he/she doesn't have a home. I at least will want to adopt some day if I actually decide to have a child. =)   

I wish I had a pet pig or some other interesting animal!

I've been brought up having all kinds of different pets. We have had many cats and kittens continuously, a rabbit, a turtle, a puppy, many chicken and a few pigeon. Lots of these animals have died and then we got some other pet so we didn't have many pets at the same time really. Now that we've moved to another country, we don't have any pets at all. I really really want a little puppy or something one day but yea... in a really long time I guess. If it was easy to have other animals than the basic cats, dogs, hamsters etc. as pets, I would so own a little mini baby pig or a penguin or something else that's adorable.

Just imagine my friends face expressions when they come visit and a cute baby pig runs to me from under all my clothes on the floor as I come home! It would be ADORABLE! You gotta admit that is sooooo cute. I would give it the best home ever and spoil it. I'd maybe even call it muffin! <3 I have decided that if i ever get a pet that super cute and a little chubby, it will be named muffin. 

Also, as I mentioned before, owning a pet penguin. I get it, its illegal and all the rest of it. But what if it weren't and I got to own one of those little penguins they have in South Africa. Oh wouldn't it be nice; it would flap its little wings and run around excitedly. I'm in love. <3 

 

I wish I was Flexible!

When I was a little kid I always wanted to be a ballerina because of the flexible moves and the throws and everything. I don't wanna be a ballerina anymore but I really wish I were more flexible. I've always admired flexible people and when I see someone bend themselves into weird positions, I'm always like =O 'I wanna do that too'. Well sad story, the only thing I can do is a back bend which I'm very proud of. 

I danced pole dancing (as a art) for a while and there I was forced to stretch and I got way more flexible. It was PAIN but I loved it! I'm sure if i stretched for like 15minutes everyday, I'd be able to pull off a split eventually. Well unfortunately I am too lazy for that. I might force myself to start going to deep stretching classes at my gym since I'm getting a gym card tho. There's something to think about for me. But yea anyway, just a quick post of what was on my mind today since I haven't been posting for a while. Now i'll be off to stretch since I got motivated! =D

I wish my future home will contain these things =)

Firstly let me point out that I am aware that I will probably not be able to afford these things until i'm like 50 so yeah. That's why the title has the 'I wish' in it. As a student, I don't need much. I just want a home which contains the necessities and I can hang photos and drawings all around the place.

But as I grow older and settle down somewhere, I'd like to have a home what I can furnish and decorate how I want to, so lets hope I can afford that by then. Firstly I'd like a double bed which is really comfortable and has a decorated head board. (something like in the picture below but not that one) Secondly, I'd like to have a Jacuzzi or just a big bathtub. Thirdly I'd LOVE a crystal chandelier! I saw one a few days ago I fell in love with for 400€ so... that's never gonna happen but still! Not a typical one, but rather one with some modern design on it as well.

Other things I'd like to have are for instance some cast-iron garden furniture such as a bench or a table or something... I just love them. Also a mini fountain would be nice somewhere, some random one outside or perhaps a mist fountain inside in some corner. <3 Lastly the minor touch ups I've though about would be layered curtains meaning 2 or 3 different curtains on windows (one see through one covering whole window, then some nice curtains on the sides) and my walls painted not just one color but designed. Perhaps a painted black tree on one wall would be pretty. 

So there... that's all I've had in mind for a future home so far =)

I wish life wouldn't be so hard without my computer

I am addicted to my computer... and I don't even do much on it, I just stare at it and go through stupid websites. I think this is a problem with most young people now a days. Honestly, the people I talk to online are exactly like me; 'Hey, whats up?' 'nothing, bored, and u?' 'ah... nothing much'. The basic way of starting a conversation with someone who just sits on their computer all day. I only got a own computer 2 years ago when I moved to another country, and ever since i've been in love with it.... Not as bad as I used to though. Before I couldn't live without my computer, but now a days I don't mind THAT much... kinda, sorta, maybe... heh...

I'm sending my computer off for a few weeks to be fixed and I hope in the meantime I could build a life without sitting on the computer all day. Perhaps come home and study.... (like thats ever gonna happen). The only problem is that my school work mainly needs to be done on this computer so that will get a lil frustrating eventually I guess. Well we will see how this goes... one day at a time. So c ya in a few weeks I guess, unless I miss this too much and find away to access a computer <3 

I wish I had something called 'motivation'!!

I suffer from a huge lack of motivation. Right now I've had a 2½ week holiday and tomorrow school resumes. I have to do a 1500 word History Internal Assesment, study for my driving school theory exam and finnish my personal statement, all for tomorrow. Gosh... and its no 5minute thing... AND I'M HERE WRITTING THIS!!

Another really annoying thing is that I have done nothing today.... seriously NOTHING at all. Yesterday I was planning to go sleep about 11 so I could have a fresh start.... well plans change I guess. This is really annoying and I should really really really change my ways. 

My lack of motivation is based on school mainly... but I gotta admit, i'm always late for everything, i'm really last minute, and if I start something, most likely I won't finnish it if i don't do it right away. I have no idea what I can do about this problem. I've tried everything; wake up earlier, sit in the library, try hide my computer..... NOTHING WORKS. I hope this will change before I move out to a university... otherwise i'm screwed! 

I wish we would understand that 'Everybody hurts some days' and its okay =)

Lets get right to it - we all have our emotional days. Today I had a really happy, hyper, energetic day but sometimes I have a sad, moody, depressed day. I usually have a bunch of really good days and all of a sudden for no reason have a bad day. Those days are the ones I hate being asked 'Whats wrong?' or 'Is everything okay?' since how are you gonna explain without the other person looking at you all weird anyway? My theory is that if you're happy for long, you're bound to have a negative day or moment soon to balance it out. Not that I don't believe in being happy constantly but ... you know what I mean right? 

I used to have sad days quite alot at one point. I thought to myself is it normal sometimes but.... I sometimes kinda needed a break where i'd be moody and listen to sad music all day, and be in my lazyday clothes, and lie in bed and just be me. Usually I don't even have a proper reason to be sad and sometimes almost find myself kind of looking for a reason. So yes! It is normal and definately does some good for you to sometimes just screw everything and have a lazy emotional sad day. I thought of writting about this when I listened to this song by Avril Lavigne - Everybody Hurts and thought of it like.... this is so true!! 

'Everybody hurts some days
It’s okay to be afraid
Everybody hurts
Everybody screams
Everybody feels this way
And that’s okay
La da da da da da
 That’s okay'

I wish for a even better next year!!

What do most people do on New Years? They go watch fireworks and especially young people go to parties and drink with their friends. Well what do I do on New Years? I usually go watch fireworks yes, but i've never drank on New Years which im proud of and wanna keep it that way for now atleast. =D

I'm going to spend New Years with my boyfriend and perhaps go watch fireworks but mainly, i'll just be with him. A tradition I really like on New Years is that you kiss someone when the year changes. I have never kissed anyone as the year changes since i've been with family or just the wrong company shall i say.... But anyway, this year i'll have someone to kiss around which will be really nice. =) 

My friends are organizing this New Years party i've been tempted to go to but I decided not to. I watched the movie 'New Years Eve' the other day which made me wanna go to a party where I could dress up and dance and have fun but still when I think about it, I rather have a nice peaceful evening with my boyfriend. I know it will be fun and I hope everyone elses New Year celebrations will be just as amazing! 

As for new years resolutions..... well thats still a work in process =D I never really made any resolutions but this year I can definately think of things to improve and change in my life. 

Otherwise, this Year had been the best one so far tho. I've got through school to my last year, i've got amazing friends, my sister got married, i've travelled to places i haven't been to before, and most importantly got the most amazing boyfriend ever. The next year for me will bring lots of changes in my life so I just hope it will be as good as this one has been!!

I wish that everyone could have a MERRY CHRISTMAS this year!

Nobody's life is perfect, neither is mine. I've had alot of worries and troubles on my mind this month and i've thought, whats this christmas gonna feel like? I've been worried about are my siblings going to be present for christmas and are the people closest to me going to be having a good time with peace on their minds when christmas comes around. Christmas has kinda just come really fast the past years and I haven't gotten that 'CHRISTMAS, CHRISTMAS, CHRISTMAS' feeling. I hoped I would this year.

But guess what... I got that feeling =D. Im sooo happy. I've done loads of christmas shopping today, and had a great day with my two beautiful sisters in the city <3 Everything in life is perfect at the moment. Not one worry in my mind. It's an amazing feeling. I'm really looking foreward to chrismas and I bet it will be an amazing one. 

Theres on thing I really wish for though... I wish other people could kinda get that peace for christmas too. No matter in what situation you're in. You may have a million worries in the world... Your could be living a nightmare right now but I just hope you could find a way to just put everything in life on hold and just have a really good christmas with your loved ones. If theres no loved ones around... then why not alone then? Go to christmas church and be around people for a bit, enjoy the snow if there is any, have something really good to eat (lots of it) and just have an amazing relaxing time of your life with a cup of hot chocolate under a blanket, without anything to disturb you and just enjoy christmas!! (after all, it's just once a year)

Merry Christmas everyone, and lets not forget the real meaning of christmas either <3 

I wish these were the type of clothes I wore... :DDD

I wear all kinds of clothes, but im really picky with what I wear too. I normally wear just totally random clothes from my wardrobe but I wish I could choose whatever and I owned them too. So if I were to choose what to wear on some random day and I could pick anything, this would be it. I love accessories; l love long earrings and rings and bracelets!, i dont like carrying bags around at all... i rather just put my phone and keys in my pocket =D i like shoes but i don't own that many since im so picky with those too.... okay ill correct that, i own loads of shoes but i got my favourites! hahaa 

So here goes, for jeans... id go for ripped ones - theres something about ripped jeans that i just love <3

For a shirt i'd choose a kid of lose one, perhaps one where the other shoulder shows =) and perhaps one where a tiny little bit of stomach shows too haha ^^ As for my shoes theres just 2 choices - High Heels or Converse (shoe laces untied usually =D) Depends on day though... if i wanna look more classy or just comfortable :D and depends if my feet hurt from the day before already....

 For accessories as I mentioned earlier, i love em and yea, i usually go for silver rings and all bracelets and all that. I don't really like colors on jewelery :D So i'd grab a bunch of rings on a few fingers and then a few bracelets on the other hand and im good to go =D

I wish that it would snow!

It's the 6th of December in Finland and it snowed for the first time last night. Last year we had snow already late October... whats this?? Honestly, i've always hated the winter because im not used to a climate like this though. =( This will be the 3rd winter i've experianced in my life. I love love love snow but its far too cold for me, but this winter im really wanting the snow and looking foreward to it, so I guess i'll appreciate this then... 

I've lived in Africa all my life so i'm used to a warm Christmas but when you are in a country like Finland where the snow belongs to winter.... it just has to be there. Snow on Christmas is a must. And ofcourse it cheers you up when theres snow everywhere, when the days are only a few hours long, and its pitch black.... it kinda lights up the place abit. =D So yeah,,, I don't know about you but im really looking foreward for that white Christmas!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I had a tattoo!

The thing with me is that I really like tattoos. BUT I would probably never get one because i'd most likely get bored of it eventually and want something else instead so yeah. It would be awesome to have this 1 year tattoo or something like that tho. I know there are ones that stay a few years and then fade away but i've read lots of bad stuff about them like sometimes they stay there permanently all half faded, or leave a mark, or fade slow and ugly, and its friggin expensive plus all this other stuff I don't wanna take risks with.


I've thought about this stuff alot tho like, where would I get a tattoo? Probably somewhere where I can see it so... not on my back or something even tho those are cool too. I'd probably go for one on my foot or wrist or then on the right side on my waist just above the line of my jeans........... or then on my back-shoulder :D Yea, lots of options, all sound good. But I guess a place which can be hidden easily would be the best.

For the what would I get tattoo of? I think I wouldn't need too much of meaning on my tattoo, i'd just want something that looks good. Or then just some really good quote or text that I really like. If I had one on my wrist though, I think i'd go for a word or name that's somehow special to me.

So yeah..... the only thing i've actually thought of, and concluded that I'd be happy with would be a few lizards probably on my outter foot, big enough for people to see them, or then have a few on my back-shoulder thing, or like the girl in the photo =D And to add a little detail still, maybe it would be nice to have a word or a 3 word phrase there too next to the bottom lizards tail too.