Dreams Come True

I was sitting thinking about this blog and then thought to myself; why am I just writing about wishes? What about when I actually do something about those wishes and make them come true? Surely I need to inform you guys so you don't think I just sit around dreaming my life away! Well here goes. I have always loved circus, gymnastics and dancing kinda thing as you maybe can tell from my blog. I have done pole dancing (the fitness type! :D ) before as a teenager and absolutely loved it. Every year after that, which is now like 5 years, I have thought 'oh I'll go to the gym for a while to gain strength and then go'. Well I am pleased to say that I have finally started both aerial hoop and pole dancing!!! I absolutely love both and don't understand why I haven't started earlier. This fulfills my wishes of circus-y stuff, dancing and flexibility which I have written about before. 

I was a bit nervous going thinking I will be rubbish at it and so on, but I went in and could do the moves and if I couldn't the instructor would help me. Everyone needs to start somewhere. I got a lovely confidence boost as well when the instructor was pleased with me when I could do a move no one else could do in the beginners class even though it was my first time! I was just thinking yay me for training my core at the gym! (a few times haha) SO what have we learned? Always act upon your dreams!!! Otherwise you'll end up regretting it. And better late than never!!! I've never posted pictures of myself but I will post one now as I feel it needs to be posted as evidence for this!

'This too shall come to pass'

My life is not great right now. I feel like I'm fine and I say it out loud so I don't need to admit to myself that I feel like I will fall at any second. I don't know if it's just the moment or if this is something I need to get over with time. I have so many decisions I need to make as soon as possible, I have to do a lot of course work for university, I feel like I am letting go of certain people in my life I don't want to but feel like I have to. I want to be strong and resilient and not admit that I've been hurt this time. Perhaps its because I've always tried to be strong so its like the hit that finally knocks you a bit? I feel like I try and say out loud how I'm happy with how everything turned out and this is the way I planned it as I'm afraid to admit this is not what I wanted at all. I don't think I ever knew what I wanted to begin with tho so who knows. I feel like I'm running away from my problems quite literally but I don't know if I should just stand and face them this time. I think I'll choose the first option...

This song came up randomly on my youtube and it hit me somewhere where all those feelings I just wrote above came out. I didn't plan this post or try write it nicely or get lovely photos. Just the song and my feelings in the simplest way possible and a bit sugarcoatedly. Couldn't even be bothered to stick to my I wish titles this time, sorry about that. :) If I had to come up with something I guess it would be something in the lines of 'I wish this little part of my big life would be over already and I would feel like normal happy me again!' I just thought 'This too shall come to pass' would express more what I feel like now and how I try look at the positives... even tho I really don't. You know what I mean, no more lying to myself! :D