I wish I didn't feel so empty

Lately I've felt really empty. I'm pretty sure I know the reasons why but I can't do anything about it. I need to just wait and time will make it all better I guess. I just want to tell future me to be thankful for happiness and not take it for granted as I trust I won't be this way in some years time. I have so much things to do right now with university and everything but I just feel so empty that I'm not doing them and time is running out. I really need to just push through this and it will all be better soon. I just hate feeling this way and there are days I feel like it will all be better but then again I have days that I just feel like giving up. I'm sure there's so many of you out there who feel just like me and its hard to stay positive but better days are yet to come. =)

I Wish I Liked My Singing Voice More

I wish I could sing better than I do because I simply love music and playing the piano and all that. I wish I was confident and had a nice enough voice that I wouldn't be shy when playing the piano with my little skills and singing along. I try sing a bit louder every time and even sing on parts where the notes go too high or too low to practice my voice more. People have said I have a good voice sometimes but in all honesty I think its a pretty normal voice, nothing special really. 

I think singing lessons would be fun tho. I feel like my voice isn't strong enough or some muscles there aren't strong enough because when I go to out of my comfort zone high notes, my voice kinda starts wobbling a bit or breaking or something and isn't strong there. Hard to explain but maybe you know what I mean. Maybe singing lessons would increase my confidence and get me a little bit of a better voice. Unfortunately I'm not gonna afford, or put my money into singing lessons ever so I'm just gonna have to sing by myself in the shower or something and practice that way!

Another great thing about singing - it's good therapy if you're feeling upset or something. I remember when I was going through some hard moments and I went to my piano and played a Christian song called 'A day, and a moment at a time' (Its in Finnish) and sang along quite loud - and it made me feel so much better. I felt like when I sang the words of the song which were perfect for the situation I was in, it kind of told me everything will be okay and I shouldn't worry. I've had quite a few moments like this and if something similar has happened to you, you will know what I'm talking about. So yea, I wish I liked my voice more and could sing better perhaps.

I wish I'd have a healthy lifestyle now and forever...

This means for the rest of my life, not just now. I'm quite happy that I actually do like healthy food and exercising and all that. BUT I definitely need someone to push me a bit. My boyfriend keeps telling me to stop buying frozen processed meat (its sooo good!) but I can't really do much about it since fresh meat costs so much! I try drink water instead of juice and fizzy drinks but unfortunately I love juice. To try change this, I try not to have it available and sometimes put a few drops of lime into my water to make it more tasty.  As for exercise, I go to the gym but often am too lazy to go there. But I try very hard to go more, its a work in progress... 

So, one day when I'm married perhaps, I wish my husband would have a healthy lifestyle since I'd automatically have one too. And if my husband goes to the gym and all that, I'll feel guilty being a couch potato. See, it would all work! And this applies to when I'm 40 as well! I wanna go for jogs and have a healthy lifestyle in general. This is beneficial in all ways since I'd look better, be more healthy, and generally feel better! I feel like this actually will happen unless I get a husband who is a couch potato of course. But yeah, I know my lifestyle isn't the best right now but it isn't too bad either and I am working on changing it! So yes, challenge accepted! The photo below is my goal! Hahaa :D