I wish I'll somehow afford to pay gym, pole dance and aerial hoop classes next university year!!

I love dancing so much! I've done pole dancing before and
absolutely loved it and want to do it again. Best exercise ever; keeps you fit, tones your body, and builds quite a bit of muscle. So yeah I wanna join that when I return to university. The thing is I provide a 100% for myself so where is this money gonna come from? I'm working at the moment and plan to work till the end of summer all the time. I counted my finances approximately and I will have a very tight financial situation. I thought about it tho, I could prioritize what I want to do and health first as in dance classes and gym and then food and then shopping/going out. 

I found out that the pole dancing studio I want to join also has aerial hoops now which got me super exited. This means if I join pole dancing, I can also go to the aerial hoop lessons! Win win for me! I looked at prices and it will be £35 per month and I would commit to 6 months with this mini membership (7 classes a month max). Including this I thought it would be really good to have my gym at the same time as I will need to be super fit to pull these classes off somehow. That adds another £18.99 per month. So £53.99 per month out of my finances. 

I have a feeling I'm gonna take a risk with my finances and dive into this when I get back to university. I will have to manage my finances more than ever and stop useless shopping and make choices with the food I eat and if I can afford to go out or not. But in all honesty, I think I will be so much happier going to these classes. My muscles will always hurt for days but I will feel like I've achieved something after every class and be super happy and of course get very fit at the same time. I just think I might go for this!!! So exited! =D

And a quick word about the photos, amazing isn't it? And no I'm not that flexible - nowhere near a split. But I will go for it and hopefully after the huge amount of stretching at the classes be flexible and be able to do tonnes of stuff! Plus in beginners classes no one really knows what their doing so no worries :)

I wish I'd never have to say goodbye again.

I hate goodbyes. I don't think anyone hates goodbyes as much as I do. I'm leaving to be an au pair to Spain for 6 weeks in a few days but I'm leaving my town already tomorrow and therefore have to face a painful goodbye to my boyfriend. We've spent so many days together because I'm leaving and had such a great time together. Today we were walking together and all of a sudden he ran off and picked me a beautiful flower, and that's when it struck me - I'll see him for a very few short hours anymore. I never stress about goodbyes this much but I felt horrible hours before saying good night to him. I know I will still see him tomorrow when he takes me to the bus station but I just started crying in his arms when we got to my place. I cried for ages and regret all my wishes and final decisions of leaving to be an au pair in the first place. I hate good byes. I never ever want to leave my loved ones again. Ever. It's just unnecessary sadness. 

Seeing what I'm like at this stage already, just think about how horrible it must have been back in the day for all the ladies that had to say goodbye to their husbands when they left to war, marines, or anything. In fact, one day I'll  have to say bye when my boyfriend goes to the army but hopefully I'll get to see him every weekend or every second weekend so its not too bad. Either way, I'm definitely not looking forward to the emotional goodbye at the bus station tomorrow. I didn't used to get so upset about this stuff, whats happened to me? I wish goodbyes didn't exist. =(

I wish I wore dresses more

I love wearing dresses and summer is a great excuse to wear them. The thing is, I kinda feel overdressed going out on a normal day wearing a dress. I know a lot of people wear dresses and all that but I can't help feeling awkward. Either way, I have started changing myself!! I have a few friends who wear dresses all the time so I wore dresses when I was with them. After that I didn't feel that awkward anymore. I actually felt really pretty wearing a dress and it was so comfortable and chill. After that I've tried my best to wear more dresses outside since I do own quite a few dresses. So yes, I am actually starting to wear more dresses and winning that feeling of awkwardness! 

I wish I knew how to paint!

I love drawing and painting but I never get around to doing it. I'm not too good either but I have to admit I surprise myself when I actually start drawing something. I'm better that drawing stick men, but not that good so I'd also love to learn more. I'd love it if I had the equipment and someone pushed me into painting and drawing stuff every now and then. It would be nice someday to put my own drawings and paintings on my wall if they are any good. 

From my drawings and paintings from high school art classes I like quite a few and am really happy I've kept them. I think they also remind me that I am okay good at stuff like drawing for example, so if I someday get really bored with my life, I'll go buy some paint and brushes and get busy!