I wish that during the next 3 weeks will restore all my energy as I am worn out by life.

I have been STRESSED! I just wrote my last high school finals exam paper today. Finals lasted for 3 weeks and even though I was really easy going with them, I stressed. I haven't slept much, haven't seen people that much, haven't even had time to take a shower some days. That's how stressed I am. Otherwise too I'm mentally just... tiered. I need a holiday. Therefore I booked tickets to Turkey with my cousin for 2 weeks leaving in a few days. It's been a big hassle talking this over with my family but I need a holiday, I wont care what anyone says now, I'm going. 

I just wanna lie on the beach, phone switched off, nothing on my mind; no worries, no stress, nothing to do. Just me with my cousin lying on the beach in peace with no planning ahead. Taking one day at a time. I can't wait! It will be amazing, I just have to watch how much money I plan on using since I am kinda broke now =D

One aim of my holiday is also for me to be able to just be with God as well. I have been going through some stuff with him and I'd like to take care off basically, and yea I've been busy lately so I just wanna take time out and spend time with him too. <3 It will be amazing. I'm positive!! I'll return a new fresh person!!!

I sometimes wish I didn't have to live in this world anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I have a good life. The best family ever, loving boyfriend, good friends... life is good with me. But sometimes like today, nothing is really wrong but I somehow just feel like all my strength is gone and I wanna leave and go to heaven already ( no i'm not suicidal). I am a christian yes. I thought of this blog post as I listened to a Finnish song that sang about heaven and the song speaks for itself. So yea,  here goes:

I sometimes wonder if there's something more,

something that I cannot understand.

Is there a kingdom of heaven somewhere,

there where people cannot see,

cannot see.

Tell me there's a heaven out there somewhere,

tell me there's no dying over there.

Tell me there's a heaven out there somewhere,

tell me that's where Jesus lives.

In heaven nobody will ask for papers,

and no one asks what club we belong to.

There's no not need to think and ponder,

what relationships should we up hold.

There will not be tears any longer,

There we wont have to rely on lies.

There is just a group of lost people,

Which were brought back home,

brought back home.

Tell me there's heaven out there somewhere,

Tell me there's no dying over there.

Tell me there's heaven out there somewhere,

Tell me that's where Jesus lives.

The text written in bold is what makes my heart feel warm. That's what I believe my destination to be. It sounds so good that I sometimes wish I was there already. I don't know if i'm the only one but I sometimes think I can't wait to be in that place. And I believe that God had assured me that that's my destination. I don't know about you but I'm atleast happy I know where I'm going! <3